It had been a while now since the last film night, the final 'Fanyastic 4' get together. We all remianed friends though I sought for a close relationship with someone new. Milica was Alec's girlfriend, we had Welsh together and spent a lot of time together through Alec at first but we soon became close without the middle link. A kind of calm had fallen upon our large 6th Form clique which was a well welcomed relief to the usual high tensions we faced on a daily basis. Milica & I had gotten rather close now to the point where there would be no secrets between us and we'd often be seen together, she had even began trusting me enough to talk about her relationship with Alec, one of my best friends. Unfortunately, her feelings seemed all over the place - she would complain when Alec would leave her 'alone' (she was usually still with other friends) but complain when he stayed with her as he was 'annoying'. Clearly a lose-lose situation there.
Someone had come up with an idea to go camping in the summer after year 13 had ended and before people would move away to Universities across Britain which proved to be a popular idea at first. Pretty much anyone interested was welcome which included Milica & I. In a conversation about the trip (which at that point was still totally unplanned) Dima had joked that the trip would be better if only guys would go, the problem was the way he had said it did not make it clear it was a joke, nor did he apologise (immediately) when people took offence. This joke created a clear division between in the clique with some supporting Milica's offense - this included me - and those who thought people were over-reacting to Dima's comment - who, funnily enough, were mainly guys who had not been present when Dima made the comment. I totally over-reacted to the whole scenario using this as a chance to take all my feelings out on Dima which resulted in Milica & I isolating ourselves from the rest of the clique and ultimately deciding not to go camping.
With divisions becoming apparant and with relationships breaking down Milica & I became quite unpopular and we used this to be horrible, bitchy people as we are fairly similar people. We are both effective at manipulating people and playing with emotions and we just did this for sport. Even with this we had managed to keep some closer friends though even those relationships looked ready to break. It had come to a point where I really only had Milica to turn to when I needed someone when before I could have gone to Dima, an impossible thought now. Meanwhile one of my most looked-forward to events of the year was quickly approaching (in May) and I had been planning how to make it an even better event since October. People had been invited to this event in November/December and there were drop-outs and major uncertainties, especially with Dima as our relationship was at an all time low, but I was willing to change to make my plans succesful...
Thanks for reading.
Engill
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